This isn’t real. It’s similar in nature to writing your own eulogy. It’s an exercise in thinking about what an end of life decision might look like and what would lead me to a decision of that nature.
I find that much of my motivation stems from thinking about death and sex. There are things that I feel should be accomplished before I die and when I wake up and focus on what needs to be done before I can die in contentment, it focuses and motivates me. That’s the heart of my accomplishment-based motivation.
Sex is often the main or greatest hedonic pleasure in life that drives me (with novel, exciting experiences being a close second) and so I write and think a lot about it, mostly indirectly, by examining its relationship to hedonism and well-being.
Between desire satisfaction and goal satisfaction, it’s really only unaccomplished goals that wave off death. I don’t really believe that unsatisfied desire for pleasure would be a huge loss if an early death occurred, but do feel unsatisfied positive accomplishments would be a loss - mainly for others still living who wouldn’t receive benefits.
This can be summarized as, “While we’re here, enjoy some pleasure and before we go, do some good.” An even shorter summary is, “Be good and enjoy.”
So here is the suicide note that will never be written (too much to be accomplished!), but which bangs around in my mind each day to some extent.
To Whom It May Concern,